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Hello! I'm girl living in paradise. My eggcracked on 24 Jan 1996, 14 years old. I'm in Dunman Sec 2E'10.(: I was from TNS. I love many things. Things that you can imagine of. ^.^

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Tuesday, June 15, 2010


Could you stop controlling my life? I need my space and freedom! I know you are worried that I wont do well for my exams but this isn’t the right approach. You get really worked up so easily. I think you are too stressed out. You also need to cool down okay? I know you care for me. Lets work things out alright? Give me some time and Hopefully things will be better. Go take a break and when you come back, things will revert. :]

Sunday, June 13, 2010


HADES IS THE BEST AMONGST THE REST! I LOVE HADES FOREVER! <3 color="#ff6666">Gen, JiaXuan, YitPhin, Jacqueline, MinHwee, Siti, Syazana, Aliah, ChinYee, JunHao, Emmanuel, WeeSiang, Syafiq, ZhiYang, HongZhi, ZhiKai, Steward, David, WeiCong, ChinYang, Me. Thank you Hades, Hermes, Aries, Zeus, Apollo, Poseidon, Sub-coms, FAs, Main-coms, Advisors, Instructors and more more more! So many to thank! Thank you so much for making this LTC camp a very memorable one for me. I've got to know many new friends thoughout this camp. All those pumpings, fire drill, rushing, not enough time to shower and more, i will always remember them. This camp was tough but everyone perservered. I definitely did not regret staying on for the camp instead of going home. I leaders help me forget all about my handphone, my bed at home and facebook. they keep me occupied all the way. Without fail, they brought me much joy. I've learnt so many new cheers in this camp too!


1cheer is not enough, 2 cheer is not enough, 3 cheers and 3 cheers for Dunman LTC! Hip Hip Hooray! Hip Hip Hoorayy! OHHHHHHH!~ hahahahah! Still feeling so high after the camp. Camp Fever! OHHHH!~


Dunman leaders hot anot? Hot! Dunman leaders hot anot? Hot! Dunman leaders hot anot? Hot Sia! *sizzling hot* pssssssss! hahahaha!


So far, this is the best camp I have ever attend! ^^ I want more more and moreee! Hades I love you! Hades Hades is the best, we are the best amongst the rest! Go Hades, ohhh ohhh!~ Go Hades, ohhh ohhh!~ GOOOOO HADESSSS!!!! OHHHHHHH!~~~


Hades got Yandao got Chiobu we cant be stop!~ Hades got Yandao got Chiobu we super hot!~ Hades got Yandao Chiobu Yandao Chiobu we ultra hot!~ GOOOOOO HADESSS!~~~ OHHHH!


Sorry! I'm so highhhh nowww! :/ hahahhahahahahaha!

CampFire was a blast! I totally enjoyed it man! Scream scream scream! Hahahahah! So Fun man! I also love Sea Act! Kayakingg! OHHHHH!~ So funnn! Yeahhhh! Orienteering was tiring but we cheered while moving from one destination to another! ^^ love it man!




Last day was really sad, last time seeing the leaders. In fact, No! We will make it a NO! The End is just the beginning! We will organise outings together alright Hades? Lets all keep in contact with one another, not only current Dunmanites but also those who have graduated. I Love Everyonee! ^^ Too high already.

Saturday, June 05, 2010


2June: Mum's B'day! We(family and close relatives) went to Shangri-la hotel to eat buffet. :D Happy Birthday Mum! I know I havent been a good daughter to you. Things will change for the better. I hope so? hahah. Anyway, food was good there. Ate until i was full. >.<> String camp! Yayy! But morning 9-12pm, went school for mass LTC meeting. We had to learn the mass dance and friendship dance. But the performance still not completed yet. Going to syafiq's house on sunday to pack the stuff and complete the performace. So, camp started at 2pm, started being high and stuff. Played teambonding games and had a treasure hunt. So fun leh. Pick up some clues then Casey say that is not the clue. so we had to go find another clue. Teammates were all very co-operative! yay! hahah. Thanks peeps! Dinner was good. (: After dinner, had 2 night activities. First one was that we had to blindfold ourselves. then everyone hold each other's shoulder. then walk walk walk around sch, trainers guilded us. They acted like ghost like that. Use leaves, use hand, make scary sounds but didnt scare me. But i was scared at the begining. :P hahahah. when finish the walk, take out blindfold, everything was so blur. i couldnt see things properly. take my glasses to wear also didnt work. then next night act also need to blindfold. blindfold and make the group's animal sound. My group was the sheep. So we went around meh-mehing. hahah. then found the group mates and sat down. think the sheep group was the first leh! :D Then after that, bond bond bond, then go shower. Shower finish then was bedtime. Lights out.

3June: String camp! Yayy! But morning 9-12pm, went school for mass LTC meeting. We had to learn the mass dance and friendship dance. But the performance still not completed yet. Going to syafiq's house on sunday to pack the stuff and complete the performace. So, camp started at 2pm, started being high and stuff. Played teambonding games and had a treasure hunt. So fun leh. Pick up some clues then Casey say that is not the clue. so we had to go find another clue. Teammates were all very co-operative! yay! hahah. Thanks peeps! Dinner was good. (: After dinner, had 2 night activities. First one was that we had to blindfold ourselves. then everyone hold each other's shoulder. then walk walk walk around sch, trainers guilded us. They acted like ghost like that. Use leaves, use hand, make scary sounds but didnt scare me. But i was scared at the begining. :P hahahah. when finish the walk, take out blindfold, everything was so blur. i couldnt see things properly. take my glasses to wear also didnt work. then next night act also need to blindfold. blindfold and make the group's animal sound. My group was the sheep. So we went around meh-mehing. hahah. then found the group mates and sat down. think the sheep group was the first leh! :D Then after that, bond bond bond, then go shower. Shower finish then was bedtime. Lights out.


4June: 2nd day of camp. Woke up at 6am. Didnt sleep well, started having headache and backaches. Reported at 7.30am at canteen. Then had morning PT, then after that felt worst, didnt eat breakfast. After breakfast then went the rest went to play some games in the classroom. I followed them there but sat at the table to rest. After that was getting better alrd. Then they played waterbomb match. I also didnt play. Didnt want to get worst. But then all of a sudden i got fever. then headache like super bad, backache also. then when they going to eat lunch alrd, i cannot tahan. Then told teacher say i got fever. She bring me go general office take temperature. 38.6. then stayed and sleep at sickbay for like 3-4hours. then wake up, teacher take temperature again. then 38.9. she say cannot alrd, i need go home. so mum came pick me up. Karittha and teacher helped me pack bag. Thanks so much! <3>: Wait till you get sick again, i'll disturb you back! Muhahaha! :D

Monday, May 24, 2010



Gosh! It's been almost 1month that I havent updated my blog. Exams are over. Results are out. Didnt do well do. Grrrr. I need to pull up my socks le. Terrible leh. Hais, neh mind uh. I dont care le. What is done is done, cant unwind it. These few weeks very busy cause of up coming camps. Sad. But then first 2 weeks holiday is totally packed, then 3rd and 4th week going to be free! ^.^ hehe. 2 weeks for me to relax, i think not enough ley. hahaha. This week last week le! All play play de. ^^

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

Everything seems to be down for me these few days. Exams are coming, and the teachers are cramming everything into our brains. Recent class test, I failed my chinese and science badly. And then my maths just passed. What happened to me?! I'm just losing my concentration too easily these days. I simply just cant memorise a single shit from the notes and the textbk. And moreover exams are starting next Friday! Teachers, could you spare a thought for us? Stop throwing us with firey homework. Reading task is due this friday, 30/4, and I havent even started. Only if I was born to be smart...


There is this feeling that keeps coming back. :< I just dont want to do it anymore. The outcome of it is that I'll just disappoint people time and again. I'm so stressed out. I know that there are sec4s & 5s that are definitely more stress then my but they dont do silly stuff. Everything in my life is all abt fun fun and more fun. I just cant cope with stress.


"I was born with a congenital heart disease.

My dad wanted to let me die, due to the lack of money he had.

My grandfather, not wanting his first grandchild to die, paid for the 2 open heart surgeries I had, as well as relocate my family to England where the best pediatric cardiologist in the world practiced."

Extracted from GMH.


If people with more problems then me can lead a life and perserve, I think I should be able too. Hope that everything would be better after the MYE.
Good Luck everyone. :>

Tuesday, March 30, 2010


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JANUARY

Stubborn and hard-hearted. Ambitious and serious. Loves to teach and be taught. Always looking at people’s flaws and weaknesses. Likes to criticize. Hardworking and productive. Smart, neat and organized. Sensitive and has deep thoughts. Knows how to make others happy(trying). Quiet unless excited or tensed. Rather reserved. Highly attentive. Resistant to illnesses but prone to colds. Romantic but has difficulties expressing love. Loves children. Loyal. Has great social abilities yet easily jealous. Very stubborn and money cautious.

FEBRUARY
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract. Intelligent and clever.Changing personality. Attractive. Sexy. Temperamental.Quiet, Shy and Humble. Honest and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt. Gets angry really easily but does not show it. Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends but rarely shows it. Daring and stubborn. Ambitious. Realizes dreams and hopes. Sharp. Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous. Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.

MARCH
Attractive personality. Sexy. Affectionate. Shy and reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous and sympathetic. Loves peace and serenity. Sensitive to others. Loves to serve others. Easily angered. Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness. Observant and assesses others. Revengeful. Loves to dream and fantasize. Loves traveling. Loves attention. Hasty decisions in choosing partners. Loves home decors. Musically talented. Loves special things. Moody.

APRIL
Active and dynamic. Decisive and hasty but tends to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself. Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic. Consoling, friendly and solves people’s problems. Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and caring. Suave and generous. Emotional. Aggressive. Hasty. Good memory. Moving. Motivates oneself and others. Sickness usually of the head and chest. Sexy in a way that only their lover can see.

MAY
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

JUNE
Thinks far with vision. Easily influenced by kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to delay. Choosy and always wants the best. Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to joke. Good debating skills. Talkative. Daydreamer. Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Able to show character. Easily hurt. Prone to getting colds. Loves to dress up. Easily bored. Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to recover when hurt. Brand conscious. Executive. Stubborn.

JULY
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed. Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily consoled. Honest. Concerned about people’s feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable. Emotional temperamental and unpredictable. Moody and easily hurt. Witty and sparkly. Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets. Dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things. Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive and forms impressions carefully. Caring and loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties in studying. Loves to be alone. Always broods about the past and the old friends. Likes to be quiet. Homely person. Waits for friends. Never looks for friends. Not aggressive unless provoked. Prone to having stomach and dieting problems. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt and takes long to recover.

AUGUST
Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious. Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friends.

SEPTEMBER
Suave and compromising. Careful, cautious and organized. Likes to point out people’s mistakes. Likes to criticize. Stubborn. Quiet but able to talk well. Calm and cool. Kind and sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal but not always honest. Does work well. Very confident. Sensitive. Good memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look for information. Must control oneself when criticizing. Able to motivate oneself. Understanding. Fun to be around. Secretive. Loves leisure and traveling. Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up feelings. Very choosy, especially in relationships. Systematic.

OCTOBER
Loves to chat. Loves those who loves them. Loves to take things at the center. Inner and physical beauty. Lies but doesn’t pretend. Gets angry often. Treats friends importantly. Always making friends. Easily hurt but recovers easily. Daydreamer. Opinionated. Does not care of what others think. Emotional. Decisive. Strong clairvoyance. Loves to travel, the arts and literature. Touchy and easily jealous. Concerned. Loves outdoors. Just and fair. Spendthrift. Easily influenced. Easily loses confidence. Loves children.

NOVEMBER
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun. Sexy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards your inner and outer beauty and independent personality. Playful. Secretive. Very emotional and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people easily and very social in a group. Fearless and independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a crowd. Essentially very smart. Usually, the greatest men are born in this month. One of a kind. Innocent, shy and childish. Proud of yourself. Little tomboy-ish. X-ray eyes. Always smile. Loves freedom. Revengeful. Get jealous easily. Selfish. Likes to hear nice things. Likes to have fame and reputations. Spendthrift.

DECEMBER
Loyal and generous. Sexy. Patriotic. Active in games and interactions. Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in organizations. Fun to be with. Loves to socialize. Loves praises. Loves attention. Loves to be loved. Honest and trustworthy. Not pretending. Short tempered. Changing personality. Not egotistic. Take high pride in oneself. Hates restrictions. Loves to joke. Good sense of humor. Logical.

Sunday, March 21, 2010


Yay! Changed new blogskin. Bored of the old one. Used it for so long! I practically spent my whole holiday playing away, slacking and going out! Ughh! So much homework not done yet! Gosh! Art! I have 2 to 3 more pictures to draw and at least 5 ideation! And and, the timetable changed again. Not for the better, but for the worst! :( I swear without my parents in singapore, i really had alot of freedom. But i didnt study at all! AHHH! I better go do my homework now! Byyee! ^.^